Monday, April 2, 2012

Happy Birthday Pax...

Baking a cake, buying presents, inviting friends over, balloons, make crazy cute stuff from pinterest...All things I would totally do for my Babies first birthday, well except if they are in another country...

Today I have the peace of God. Instead of baking cake & I am praying & I am crying out to God & crying with tears. All those tears are being stored up. God is teaching me to trust in a way I have never known... One day my heart was so full of sorrow & longing for Pax just so frustrated with injustice in this world, some friends called & prayed over the phone; God was showing them that the Holy Spirit was literally holding Pax. Another day God showed my husband a picture of Jesus sitting next to Pax's bed with a sword, nothing could harm him...

God is so near to Pax!! God is watching over him! God holding him... When I think about our little Pax & the amazing life he is going to have knowing that the first year of his life he didn't have a mom or dad to hold him but instead the creator of the universe!!!! Whoa come on that is awesome!!! So Happy Birthday our sweet boy & rest in the hands of the one who created you, we will see you soon & I promise you will have the most stellar birthday party imaginable!