the paxton project: trust vs. unbelief...

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

trust vs. unbelief...

It was a Friday morning prayer meeting @ ywam Orlando & I was more discouraged than I had ever been concerning adoption...
God was moving in the prayer meeting repentance had broken out & it was awesome!!! As people were repenting God was convicting my heart & dealing with unbelief. Unbelief that God would not come thru, as this prayer time went on God started to ask me what if you gave up? What if you never saw Paxtons face? What if Pax stayed in the orphanage & didn't get adopted what kind of life would Pax have? All because I was tired & it felt hard... My heart began to melt & I went up took the microphone & began to share my heart & declare that I will adopt as many kids as possible... There was such a break through in that moment... As I left the pray meeting ( literally 5 mins after i prayed )someone contacted me & said that they had been feeling that they were supposed to give us 15 thousand dollars, they said it's a gift you owe us nothing... I began to weep... To think that morning I was ready to give up.. What if I would have???? All that to say God is Awesome & keeps every tear; he hears every prayer & his timing is perfect ...

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We have raised our inition goal of requirement for the adoption to proceed. We still have travel expenses, post adoption, citizenship and other legal expenses that will gradually unfold. We still are accepting donations to help meet these needs. You may give by mail or online!

Many of you have been asking how you can give financially towards paxton's adoption & get a tax break. Your giving towards this project can be claimed as a tax deduction. You may give through Youth With A Mission Orlando, which is the Christian missions organization we work with. Here is how you can do that.

Mail: make check/money order payable to "YWAM" and mail to - Andy & Rachel Miller; PO BOX 620487; Orlando, FL 32862 / (contact us: 69.426.1086)

Note - 100% of the donations goes towards the adoption

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when i was 18, i had the privilage of going on a 2 month outreach to India w/ Youth With A Mission. I had no idea the impact it would have on my life. The thing I remember the most is the 30 hour train ride. This was NOT Amtrak. It was hot. It smelled. And there were eunuchs sitting across from me the whole trip. It was a little exciting and yet a little scary all at the same time. At one of the stops, a little boy came crawling through the train begging fro money. He was missing limbs off of his body. It was terrible and it was the first time I had ever seen anything like that. I tried to give the little boy some food, but he resisted. Later our host told us that there are people, sort of like pimps, who take in orphaned children and cut off the limbs so that when they send them out to beg, people will feel sorry for them and will then give them money. The child will in return, take all the money back to their "pimp." I had never heard anything so sick. I knew that I wanted to adopt kids from that moment on. I can not stand the fact of children growing up on the streets being sold into the sex trafficking industry, among many other horrible things. Our heart for adoption is huge. I have been asked many time, "Can you not have your own children?" My answer is, "I don't know." I went through a miscarriage in the Fall of 2010. It was sad and my heart still aches when I think about it. If I were to get pregnant, of course I would be excited. But none the less, it would not change my heart for adoption. There is something inside of me that knows this is bigger than me. I know God is with me and that he will provide. I hope to someday help others to adopt; to give; to be A VOICE on behalf of kids are are screaming, but are not being heard. This my friends excites me. And this is why I choose to adopt.