the paxton project: Jealousy, Target, & Asian baby stalking...

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Jealousy, Target, & Asian baby stalking...

In September @ YWAM Orlando we had something awesome happen in our staff training ( God showed up )! Imagine that, a bunch of missionaries crying out to God & he shows up :) Crazy I know... There was weeping, repentance, healings - both emotional & physical & just a lot of pure awesomeness!! This is a new way of life for us & were not going back..

After this awesome week, as a staff we listened to a podcast called "The Unoffendable Heart..." It dealt a lot with jealousy and it rocked our base!! Sometimes we have no idea how much we can walk in jealousy until God shines his light on our heart & we see that "nasty green monster" for what it is :) Anyways, again there was much repentance the spirit of God was sooo strong to free us of jealousy. When we are jeolous we are walking in unbelief and we are withholding love, compliments & joy from others (nasty right ).

So today I was walking around Target ( didn't need anything, sometimes I go there to catch my breath). So of course I go & look at the baby clothes and I look over and see a couple with the sweetest little asaian girl, my heart jumped and sank all at the same time! This was the time to walk out in the opposite spirit of jeously, my first thought was, "why do they get there baby?". (I know terrible ) So what do I do? I follow them and watch! What do I see? 2 of the happiest parents ever. They adored that little girl, they had no idea there was a world around them they only knew they had a beautiful little baby that they adopted and she is theirs! Yes, in target I began to cry, not because I was jealous but because I had joy for them & for me! I walked over & said "she is soooo cute" they were kind of like "we know" :) I walked out of Target happy for them & looking forward to the day when someone adopting may stalk me in Target :) [I've been stalked many times with my little tysen]. :) The point is, I could have missed out on that beautiful experience because of jealousy :) Don't let jealousy steal your joy when others get what we our longing for!! Rejoice with them, jump up & down, spin around & get super excited...It feels sooo good!!!

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when i was 18, i had the privilage of going on a 2 month outreach to India w/ Youth With A Mission. I had no idea the impact it would have on my life. The thing I remember the most is the 30 hour train ride. This was NOT Amtrak. It was hot. It smelled. And there were eunuchs sitting across from me the whole trip. It was a little exciting and yet a little scary all at the same time. At one of the stops, a little boy came crawling through the train begging fro money. He was missing limbs off of his body. It was terrible and it was the first time I had ever seen anything like that. I tried to give the little boy some food, but he resisted. Later our host told us that there are people, sort of like pimps, who take in orphaned children and cut off the limbs so that when they send them out to beg, people will feel sorry for them and will then give them money. The child will in return, take all the money back to their "pimp." I had never heard anything so sick. I knew that I wanted to adopt kids from that moment on. I can not stand the fact of children growing up on the streets being sold into the sex trafficking industry, among many other horrible things. Our heart for adoption is huge. I have been asked many time, "Can you not have your own children?" My answer is, "I don't know." I went through a miscarriage in the Fall of 2010. It was sad and my heart still aches when I think about it. If I were to get pregnant, of course I would be excited. But none the less, it would not change my heart for adoption. There is something inside of me that knows this is bigger than me. I know God is with me and that he will provide. I hope to someday help others to adopt; to give; to be A VOICE on behalf of kids are are screaming, but are not being heard. This my friends excites me. And this is why I choose to adopt.